surrender

I have decided to surrender my career to God this year. It is something I have always aimed for, but I have not yet fully released control.

I have realized that it’s not about me. It’s about God. It’s about His plan. It’s about His timing. It’s about His kingdom.

I don’t know the best way for God to use me. But He does.

And I’m not “helping God out” by grasping for control over my career. He doesn’t need me to help Him with His plan. He’s got it covered.

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My job is to seek Him first and everything else will be added. 

(Matthew 6:33)

My job is to pray about everything and be anxious about nothing. 

(Philippians 4:6)

God may decide to use me as a vessel for his kingdom by becoming a successful actress. He may decide to use me as a vessel for his kingdom by doing something completely different.

But I do think we should pray big. We should pray specifically for the things we want God to help us achieve. I am hesitant to do this with my career sometimes. Especially since my career is being an actress. Acting can seem like such a “selfish” career.

But why am I acting in the first place? I feel like the Lord gave me this desire. Each day I pray that if it’s not acting, He will show me what He wants me to do with my life. That may change at some point, but for now I believe He is telling me it’s acting.

So I need to embrace it. Acting is my career just like any other career. If I had any other occupation, I would pray fervently that the Lord would bring me the right job so that I could support myself financially, use my talents to help others, and share my love for Jesus along the way. Why should acting be any different? It shouldn’t.

I have realized I should not feel bad about praying for auditions. I should not feel bad about praying to book jobs… big jobs that provide income. (What a concept!). Because the fact it, God wants us to prosper. He wants us to have success. He tells us, 

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“For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” (Jeremiah 29:11).

It may not always look like we want it to. But God is so good, His way will be even better.

It’s about time I surrender my desires, my anxieties, my dreams, my goals, my ambitions, my daily agenda to Him so that he can use me for His purposes and His glory. Not my own.

I just wanted to share that with you all so that no matter what 2014 brings, you can be a part of this journey with me.

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"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us." Ephesians 3:20 (emphasis added)