a crazy dream

With every birthday comes thoughts of reevaluation. Looking over the past year – assessing victories and failures. Looking to the future – setting goals for the next year of life.

I think of how far I’ve come this past year. I think of how much more I want to accomplish. And I think of the vivid dreams I have had - both literal and figurative.

“I had a dream so big and loud, I jumped so high I touched the clouds.” 

– American Authors, Best Day of My Life

This career path I’ve chosen is not a “normal” one. Then again, I’ve never felt “normal.”

I'm sure there are plenty of people who think I'm crazy, plenty of people who think I'll never "make it" – that my dreams are too far out of reach, that I'm wasting my time.

To them I say: Maybe. But you don't know what the future holds. I don't know what the future holds. Only the Lord knows what the future holds. So in the meantime…

“I’m gonna live a crazy dream, impossible as it may seem.” – Mindy Gledhill, Whole Wide World

Because just as I can’t not breathe, just as I can’t not think, just as I can’t not smile when my dad’s determined to make me do so, I can’t not dream.

In my career. In my life. In love. In friendship. In seeking and serving the Lord. I will follow my heart. And I will dream.

The Lord is in my heart. The Lord is my heart - my reason for everything. And He has put desires in my heart – in all of our hearts – to allow us to be used to the fullest of our abilities for His purposes and His glory.

And I am certain He wants us to dream.

“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and self-discipline.” – 2 Timothy 1:7

We are not called to live timidly; we are called to live boldly. The bold dream in your own heart may seem impossible to accomplish, too far out of reach to achieve. But God says otherwise. He says:

“For with [me] nothing shall be impossible.” – Luke 1:37

“Ah, Sovereign Lord, you have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and outstretched arm. Nothing is too hard for you.” – Jeremiah 32:17

I don’t know what this next year of my life will bring. But I know where my heart will be - seeking the Lord, asking Him to reveal how He would use me each day, and allowing Him to lead me and guide me each step of the way.

And so I will continue to live this crazy dream, knowing that with God all dreams are possible.

And I will remember that no matter what I accomplish in this next year, nothing will be by my own power or strength or doing, but only by the Lord working so graciously through me.

“'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit.’ says the Lord Almighty.” – Zechariah 4:6